I was going through some pictures tonight and saw the pictures from the day I cleaned out the garage and we donated most of the baby gear. Those pictures were dated April 25th. It was probably one of the hardest/worst days of my life. I was looking in the mirror (figuratvely speaking, of course) and trying to get myself to admit that I was over 40, I had a long history of losses, my husband didn't even WANT another baby, and it just wasn't meant to be.
Amazingly, less than 2 months later (June 17), Marti agreed to give "Project Sibling" one last try!
Even more amazing is that after years of some very serious on-again off-again trying, we were able to make it happen this time within a couple weeks of making that decision. (Estimated date of conception is around July 4.)
What is more amazing still is that I am still sitting here with a live baby in my belly.
I look back on where we've been and what we've been through (both the undeserved and the self-inflicted suffering) and it just doesn't seem real that this is what happened!
As if that's not good enough, I am having a wonderful pregnancy.
Surely my Karma Credit Account must be overdrawn by now!!!!
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